On a Monday

It rained in Chennai after a very long, hot summer.Though it rained after a long time, to nats and me it was not pleasing. We were already annoyed that it was a Monday and that we had to go to office. Annoyed more coz it rained at 8.30 am, exactly when both of us stepped out for office. We were annoyed because we could not enjoy the rain, because we had to watch over our dress from getting wet.

We go by bike. yes yes... nats drives and I sit behind, teaching him how to drive and how not to drive every day morning. We did not have our jackets at our place rather we did not know if we have our jackets at home. We didn’t know where the jackets were lying, at my mom's place? his mom's place? or his cub board? mine?Annoyed again that we should go without rain coats. Since it was only drizzling, we started driving. After a few minutes, it was raining. We had to wait under a shade. Annoyance again...Waited for about ten minutes and started our drive.

Somehow we reached the place where my office car would wait. After staring at the car for a moment, I asked Nats "Should I go?"
Nats: "We have come all the way. If you want, u can catch an auto and get home. Let me go to office. Bye"
I had nothing to do but to get inside the car and wanted the car to drive me home. The car drove me to nowhere but to office. Checked into my office.

Unlike everyday, the security asked each one of us to use the hand sanitizer that was installed at the entry…That was because of H1N1 spread. As a precaution ….we were asked to ensure that atleast our hands are clean… While I was using the sanitizer, I started musing 'Will swine flu spread in Chennai, since that it has started raining in chennai??'…annoyed of the thought..sigh..My Inner being :"J,Will you go and work!"

Checked my mails. Didn't feel like working. Peeped outside the glass window next to my place. It was pouring.I wanted to go home and sleep…Annoyed that I wouldn’t be doing it immediately.

Then came nats call. He said that his manager declared holiday and that he is waiting outside my office to pick me up. I didn’t expect him at my office to pick me home though I would have wanted that… Following was a quick conversation we had

J :you never asked me if i have work or not I have work , I cannot come

Nats: Can’t you ask permission?

J : No.

Nats: I am waiting outsite. I can go without you.Shall I leave?

J : ok. I ll come. Wait

Pinged my manager and left office!!!

Now, it was puring outside, We did not have jacket, nor that we had to safegaurd our attire. It is Monday but we are going home. We got ourselves fully drenched. We did not look for a shade! Not to mention about the stares that we got during our drive back home. we enjoyed that long journey to home happily!!! It was like go to school on a morning and coming back home saying "school leave today!!!"

Time to re-think

I remember I once liked listening to all these soppy love songs when I was in love.
I found myself lost with the song whenever I happened to listen.
When the songs ended, I had smiles
I remember the same engrossment with friendship song lyrics during colleage farewell times.

Have you noted that a few things would appear more important and obvious only during the time when you actually encounter it in life?

You would have gone past the same thing so many times but it would have not been more prominent…Am I blabbering? Is my point put across??

I remember another moment.
A coffee machine in my previous office had a tag labeled 'Xpress'. Not a small one. Pretty big one stuck on the machine and I had never noticed the label given that I had gone to the machine more than once a day.
The day when I noticed the label was during the time when I was assigned to a project called 'Xpress'…
To all my infy guys. Does that ring any bell? :)

Today morning, I was commuting to office by office cab. I was at the window seat.
Chennai traffic at peak hours….I wouldn't have to mention the speed of the vehicles!!
Just adjacent to my car was another car.

And at the window seat of that car was a very cute baby…the mother was holding the baby.

The baby should not be more than a year ...

It was doing all possible attempts to peep through the window and the mother with no strain had the baby under her grasp...

I liked looking at it.Yeah ...I know..babies are cute always..they are good to see every time...
But…hmm..I felt different…It felt nice even at that nettlesome moment..

Now relating to my hypothesis, is it because I am at that stage in life?


Oh no no…I don’t have any good news with me yet…:)

Just that I realized its time to rethink about our plan :)

Addicted to Drinking

I do a lot of drinking nowadays.
I am earnestly trying to stop this very bad habit but all my attempts are in vain.

I have also read drinking is not good for ladies who are planning to have baby. At least I should bring down the level of it in my blood when I am ready to get conceived.

When I stopped drinking at nights, I felt paranoid and was not able to sleep. That was when I realized I am addicted to it. SHOCK!!!!!!!!!!!

You won’t believe I am so addicted to it that I get up in the nights and would ask my hubby to give company for a drink. Nats after yelling at me would give me the company. We do cheers and enjoy our drinks at nights.
Now, my next step to stop having this is to stop taking it at office!!
Yes, let me first stop drinking coffee at office!!!Hey,What did you think???

Only in memories

Appa

Did you ever knew that we would be missing you like this??

All four of us are trying to forget that you left us.. that you are no more..

We are living with all the memories of yours...

Memories are keeping us going..

A few months back, I decided not to retreive any of your memories because all the time i thought about you it hurted so much..... I cant tell you how much......

Days were then rolling with some thoughts of you off and on!!

Lately I have realized my memories of you are slowly fading..Iam scared that the memories of you will slowly vanish from me....

and hence I started refering back all the memories though it hurts...let it hurt..

but I want you atleast in the memories... appa…

A bit too fast!!!!

Days are running.
Week ends .....melting...
Week days..I Manage time between work,cooking food for N(trying to impress him with my cooking..looks like hard to achieve..hehehe) and visiting my mom's place..
Week ends..i get busier.... cleaning and catching up with my in laws…. and sometimes wit friends...wooow.....and blogging??

Shame on me as a blogger

Shame on me!
It’s been a very very long time since I visited my site, let alone publishing an article. To add insult to the injury, I even forgot my login credentials.
If one actually counts the notable occurrences that happened in my life between the time of my last blog and now, one would realize how long it is. Shame on me... Let me list them
1) Marriage (yes..mine..and ofcourse with N..Still couldn't believe that it happened..Got lots to say about it)
2) Shopping that I did for my beautiful wedding (Would say those days were my Spending Spree)
3) First Night (Sorry for being indecent)
4) Second Night (ok.I ll stop it)
5) Honey moon(We loved it)
6) My new office (the best place to work)
7) My stay at my new house(N's house) (was lil difficult in the beginning)
8) Visit to Thirupathi with only my in-laws.Note..only with my in-laws ofcourse N was there (Was different and I liked it)
9) Thani kudathanam(not my idea.but like the idea.he he he)
10) My darling sis's first company (now that, she has got the good start in her career)
11) My best friend's first baby (wooww,very very very sweet baby.)
12) My hubbi's grandma's first anniversary-function at home (I was doing a lot of housie stuffs like the perfect daughter-in-law,)
13)My Dad's annivesary(i have no words.I still miss him)
13) N's friends death and N's emotional state because of that incident(was little distressing)
14) My close friend S's wedding(had a gud time)
Look at the count.. Not to mention, this is the count of the significant moments alone... not even one blog on one of these...Shame on me...
I wouldnt say 'I got busy Or I dint have time.' Probably I forgot that I am a blogger. Probably I was little doubtful about if my writing ever interesting somebody... I got this wake up call from one of my good friends (P)...thanks P. Hope I don’t bring in this huge gap again... Expect my next blog very soon. You know I have lots to write.

Last day at office

My last day at office

It never struck to me until a month ago that I would be leaving the company very soon.
It is the most unexpected but a positive turn in my life.
The work at the business unit where I worked was always tiring and hectic but I made a precious circle of friends.
The parting feeling that slowly got crept inside me was not because I am quitting such a big company but because of the feeling that I will no longer move as close as I did with the few friends I made.
They took pain to make the day a beautiful one despite of their busy schedule.
Had I been there in their position and somebody moving out of the company, I doubt if I would have put so much of time for arranging a farewell party because the work pressure at the moment when I was leaving did not favor leisure time.

I would say I am thankful and grateful to all of them out there.

My special thanks to style ikon, parota, mr.apple, ms.greeny, gundu, the MS boy and mottai. I would call myself fortunate and lucky for having to know such great, generous, good-hearted and wonderful people.

The farewell (untold) moments with them
With style ikon : the walk from fc to b3 after the cake cutting fn and the 5 mins talk in the browsing cubicle. He didn’t express it nor did I. But we know we will miss each other at office. Thanks style ikon.

With parota : actually parota was too busy yesterday to share the feelings.But his melancholic smile that he kept giving through out the day shared our feelings and we know we will miss each other at office. Thanks parota

With Mr.apple: the hand shake that we made at b3 entrance and the look that we exchanged when I was leaving said the untold. We will miss each other at office. Thanks mr.apple.

With Ms greeny : When she came all the way to fc when she had only enough time to catch the bus and the hand grip that she gave me said everything. Had she been there for about only a minute more my eyes would have started speaking. We will miss each other at office.

With gundu: I know how busy he was and still he was one among the very few who made it to the cake cutting function. gundu is another special person in my life. I know he’ll miss me at office and I will miss him too. thanks gundu.

With the MS boy: we were both laughing and making jokes at me leaving. But within inside, we knew we will miss each other at office. Thanks Mr.MS. Salam male kum.

All of us tried to behave maturely. All of us tried to be practical and that’s why no actual slushy talking took place.

Life…., it will take you through ups and downs and sometimes even crosses. In the process you will meet very few people who will stay closer to your heart. It will also take you to moments which will force you to move away from your favorite ones.
Not to worry,Life will also teach you how not to miss people who you loved so much. I have already learnt the lesson. But the way life thought me this lesson was very strong and nothing can be stronger than that. But…I didn’t deserve that lesson. For those who know me know the lesson as well.