I told her

All these days I didn’t know how I would explain it to my parents. It’s much easier talking to a stranger about your love than your own parents. Apparently the knottiest part in love is this confessing scene at home.

I have been thinking about telling it to my mom. It has been haunting me for quite a while now. I have been hiding something from them since very long time. I have been into an entirely different world which they never thought it existed. I have a great time with N. We are meant for each other. The thought of losing N scares me to the core.

I didn’t know how to start, where to start or when to start. I used to have so many rehearsals. I would jot down points and later decide not to go. There were so many moments I was about to tell and had kept quite. I had always come back telling myself that this is not the right time. I sometimes had felt that I would not be able to tell it at all. I know my parents will not oppose but still they are parents. Parents are meant to say NO to love because it is love. I know them. They wouldn’t say no. Still there was always something that stopped me.

When I woke up yesterday I never thought I am gonno tell her today. Who knows…had I had the plan I wouldn’t have ended telling her. Rather the whole day I would have planned for that and would have been anxious about everything.
Yesterday evening went home from office. It was a normal day at office.
Had a small fight with my sis. Followed which is my telling to mom.
Yes I told her.

“The end” for now!
Catch me later.
J

Am Confused

I am an easy going kind. I forget things very easily and I don’t take anything serious at all. Now at the same time I take everything serious. That’s an anomaly in me.
I am a little fun loving too. I am that character in the friends’ circle who would give all funny, weird ideas and strange comments and we would break into laughter. At times I would get into pulling other’s leg and not to mention it always ended in a good note.
Now it’s probably necessary for me to mention that at work am sincere and I am pretty serious with my career. Hold on…I am confused here….should I be the same to my colleagues?? Wont my fun loving and easy going character be misconceived and be taken that I would show the same kind of attitude towards my work. Are my stupid and senseless comments making them think I am illogical? I would hate things happen that way.
Now should I try and give an impression to my colleagues that am unplayful ???

"The end" for now!
Catch me later.
J