Gag-Line

Today evening, my office collegues and I were waiting for the cab that will drop us in the hotel.
I overheard this when these fellows were talking
“An apple a day keeps a doctor away...If the doctor is cute, keep the apple away!!!”

I couldn't stop smiling!! Gud one!! Isn't it??

The first two weeks in US for the first time

Yes...nah....its Yep... Yep.. I am in the most dreamt place ...The US... In the first place..feels very nice .. feels like as if I have achieved a goal in life...that I have no other bigger dream to achieve atleast in the near future.
In case you are expecting me to write my experience... well...here I go!
I think my thoughts abt it should pretty much match with any first time Indian visitor. The place is super clean, I found people more disciplined and less bothersome about the others even next to them.
You get smiles if you stumble upon anybody's eyes any time.
You hear lot of 'thank you' and 'you are welcome'.
And the traffic is just amazing! India's traffic is nowhere closer to this one.
I like this place...just like any first time visitor!!
Matter of fact...I actually haven’t seen the US fully .. It’s just been 2 weeks....

There are a few things about myself that I discovered and am surprised about it.
They are:
1) I travelled all alone to US... Not losing any of my belongings during the travel...I managed to find the driver who was to pick me up from the airport and drop me at the hotel...spoke to the front desk in the hotel and got the key and checked in to the room all alone..there wasn’t any house keeping guy helping...nor did I have my colleagues waiting for me...for all who know me, can you imagine that I did all these alone? And FYI ,I lost my gloves during the stay..that’s the usual me.
2) I don't find myself missing my dear ones...of course I call them daily and make sure they are doing good without me.. With that piece of information given to me daily, I am pretty peaceful over here!!

I must mention that I feel obliged to my company for having given me this opportunity though I am still wondering if am worth all these comforts the company is giving to me!!!

Well...If at all there is something I am missing in US...it would be Nats...With him I would have had a different time over here....I have no words to express how It would have been with Nats around!!
Back to earth, I am sure I would not have known that I could also manage a good time here without his presence close to me.
hmm... these 14 days do certainly seem like a dream....the airport..the plane...the pathway to the entrance of the plane..the takeoff..all the jerks in the plane...the clouds..fly above the clouds....the crew..transit..the whole bloody place.. the weather...my office.. my managers who I have so far related them with their voices...I got to see them, the appearances that I have imagined for each voice are not even 1% closer to the real ones...
And yes..the snow fall...I saw that too!!!



hmm...I am feeling grateful to GOD at this very moment... And yes all these contented feeling would have not been possible without the support from Nats.... Without him I am not the person I am today!!I love you natu!!!!

Having said all these, there is still something behind my mind...There is something that keeps reminding me that the ecstasy is incomplete and the cause is that my father is not here to see all this and that I could not see a proud father.
That sometimes makes the bliss disappear.
J

Not a dream

For about 1 year I had traveled to office in a private van. The van used to cut across this place every day morning. Every day, when the van passes this place I used to watch the place with a sense of desperation.Even before the van reaches the place, I will look for it. I will position myself so that I get a good view of the place. Not an exaggeration.I haven’t missed watching this place even for a day.Every day after crossing this place, I tell myself that I shouldn’t be looking at it tomm. But the next day, I would get ready to watch that place.Are you wondering what that place is? It is the the US Embassy.I have always seen that place with a long queue of well-groomed and smart crowd.Everytime I saw that queue , I yearned for it and forgot.

On 12^th November,2009 at 9.30 am I was standing in that QUEUE. Stood for one full hour. My interview was at 10.30 am. Got inside the embassy at exactly about 10.25 am. Got the papers checked. At about 10.50 am , had an interview with a tall white. We had just a 5 min conversation. At the end of it, he said ‘I am going to approve your VISA’. I gave him a smile and said thanks and walked away.

When I came out of the place at about 11, I saw nobody but Nats. He was waiting there from 9.30. I saw the anxiety on his face. When I told him its done, I found him more happy than I was. hmm..a good husband!!!:)

Was it a dream…No it happened. It just happened. Everything was quick.More than going to US, this experience was something that I was wanting….that I would cherish.

I hope I will come through the whole thing successfully.

Cya,

J

On a Monday

It rained in Chennai after a very long, hot summer.Though it rained after a long time, to nats and me it was not pleasing. We were already annoyed that it was a Monday and that we had to go to office. Annoyed more coz it rained at 8.30 am, exactly when both of us stepped out for office. We were annoyed because we could not enjoy the rain, because we had to watch over our dress from getting wet.

We go by bike. yes yes... nats drives and I sit behind, teaching him how to drive and how not to drive every day morning. We did not have our jackets at our place rather we did not know if we have our jackets at home. We didn’t know where the jackets were lying, at my mom's place? his mom's place? or his cub board? mine?Annoyed again that we should go without rain coats. Since it was only drizzling, we started driving. After a few minutes, it was raining. We had to wait under a shade. Annoyance again...Waited for about ten minutes and started our drive.

Somehow we reached the place where my office car would wait. After staring at the car for a moment, I asked Nats "Should I go?"
Nats: "We have come all the way. If you want, u can catch an auto and get home. Let me go to office. Bye"
I had nothing to do but to get inside the car and wanted the car to drive me home. The car drove me to nowhere but to office. Checked into my office.

Unlike everyday, the security asked each one of us to use the hand sanitizer that was installed at the entry…That was because of H1N1 spread. As a precaution ….we were asked to ensure that atleast our hands are clean… While I was using the sanitizer, I started musing 'Will swine flu spread in Chennai, since that it has started raining in chennai??'…annoyed of the thought..sigh..My Inner being :"J,Will you go and work!"

Checked my mails. Didn't feel like working. Peeped outside the glass window next to my place. It was pouring.I wanted to go home and sleep…Annoyed that I wouldn’t be doing it immediately.

Then came nats call. He said that his manager declared holiday and that he is waiting outside my office to pick me up. I didn’t expect him at my office to pick me home though I would have wanted that… Following was a quick conversation we had

J :you never asked me if i have work or not I have work , I cannot come

Nats: Can’t you ask permission?

J : No.

Nats: I am waiting outsite. I can go without you.Shall I leave?

J : ok. I ll come. Wait

Pinged my manager and left office!!!

Now, it was puring outside, We did not have jacket, nor that we had to safegaurd our attire. It is Monday but we are going home. We got ourselves fully drenched. We did not look for a shade! Not to mention about the stares that we got during our drive back home. we enjoyed that long journey to home happily!!! It was like go to school on a morning and coming back home saying "school leave today!!!"

Time to re-think

I remember I once liked listening to all these soppy love songs when I was in love.
I found myself lost with the song whenever I happened to listen.
When the songs ended, I had smiles
I remember the same engrossment with friendship song lyrics during colleage farewell times.

Have you noted that a few things would appear more important and obvious only during the time when you actually encounter it in life?

You would have gone past the same thing so many times but it would have not been more prominent…Am I blabbering? Is my point put across??

I remember another moment.
A coffee machine in my previous office had a tag labeled 'Xpress'. Not a small one. Pretty big one stuck on the machine and I had never noticed the label given that I had gone to the machine more than once a day.
The day when I noticed the label was during the time when I was assigned to a project called 'Xpress'…
To all my infy guys. Does that ring any bell? :)

Today morning, I was commuting to office by office cab. I was at the window seat.
Chennai traffic at peak hours….I wouldn't have to mention the speed of the vehicles!!
Just adjacent to my car was another car.

And at the window seat of that car was a very cute baby…the mother was holding the baby.

The baby should not be more than a year ...

It was doing all possible attempts to peep through the window and the mother with no strain had the baby under her grasp...

I liked looking at it.Yeah ...I know..babies are cute always..they are good to see every time...
But…hmm..I felt different…It felt nice even at that nettlesome moment..

Now relating to my hypothesis, is it because I am at that stage in life?


Oh no no…I don’t have any good news with me yet…:)

Just that I realized its time to rethink about our plan :)

Addicted to Drinking

I do a lot of drinking nowadays.
I am earnestly trying to stop this very bad habit but all my attempts are in vain.

I have also read drinking is not good for ladies who are planning to have baby. At least I should bring down the level of it in my blood when I am ready to get conceived.

When I stopped drinking at nights, I felt paranoid and was not able to sleep. That was when I realized I am addicted to it. SHOCK!!!!!!!!!!!

You won’t believe I am so addicted to it that I get up in the nights and would ask my hubby to give company for a drink. Nats after yelling at me would give me the company. We do cheers and enjoy our drinks at nights.
Now, my next step to stop having this is to stop taking it at office!!
Yes, let me first stop drinking coffee at office!!!Hey,What did you think???

Only in memories

Appa

Did you ever knew that we would be missing you like this??

All four of us are trying to forget that you left us.. that you are no more..

We are living with all the memories of yours...

Memories are keeping us going..

A few months back, I decided not to retreive any of your memories because all the time i thought about you it hurted so much..... I cant tell you how much......

Days were then rolling with some thoughts of you off and on!!

Lately I have realized my memories of you are slowly fading..Iam scared that the memories of you will slowly vanish from me....

and hence I started refering back all the memories though it hurts...let it hurt..

but I want you atleast in the memories... appa…