Not a dream

For about 1 year I had traveled to office in a private van. The van used to cut across this place every day morning. Every day, when the van passes this place I used to watch the place with a sense of desperation.Even before the van reaches the place, I will look for it. I will position myself so that I get a good view of the place. Not an exaggeration.I haven’t missed watching this place even for a day.Every day after crossing this place, I tell myself that I shouldn’t be looking at it tomm. But the next day, I would get ready to watch that place.Are you wondering what that place is? It is the the US Embassy.I have always seen that place with a long queue of well-groomed and smart crowd.Everytime I saw that queue , I yearned for it and forgot.

On 12^th November,2009 at 9.30 am I was standing in that QUEUE. Stood for one full hour. My interview was at 10.30 am. Got inside the embassy at exactly about 10.25 am. Got the papers checked. At about 10.50 am , had an interview with a tall white. We had just a 5 min conversation. At the end of it, he said ‘I am going to approve your VISA’. I gave him a smile and said thanks and walked away.

When I came out of the place at about 11, I saw nobody but Nats. He was waiting there from 9.30. I saw the anxiety on his face. When I told him its done, I found him more happy than I was. hmm..a good husband!!!:)

Was it a dream…No it happened. It just happened. Everything was quick.More than going to US, this experience was something that I was wanting….that I would cherish.

I hope I will come through the whole thing successfully.

Cya,

J

On a Monday

It rained in Chennai after a very long, hot summer.Though it rained after a long time, to nats and me it was not pleasing. We were already annoyed that it was a Monday and that we had to go to office. Annoyed more coz it rained at 8.30 am, exactly when both of us stepped out for office. We were annoyed because we could not enjoy the rain, because we had to watch over our dress from getting wet.

We go by bike. yes yes... nats drives and I sit behind, teaching him how to drive and how not to drive every day morning. We did not have our jackets at our place rather we did not know if we have our jackets at home. We didn’t know where the jackets were lying, at my mom's place? his mom's place? or his cub board? mine?Annoyed again that we should go without rain coats. Since it was only drizzling, we started driving. After a few minutes, it was raining. We had to wait under a shade. Annoyance again...Waited for about ten minutes and started our drive.

Somehow we reached the place where my office car would wait. After staring at the car for a moment, I asked Nats "Should I go?"
Nats: "We have come all the way. If you want, u can catch an auto and get home. Let me go to office. Bye"
I had nothing to do but to get inside the car and wanted the car to drive me home. The car drove me to nowhere but to office. Checked into my office.

Unlike everyday, the security asked each one of us to use the hand sanitizer that was installed at the entry…That was because of H1N1 spread. As a precaution ….we were asked to ensure that atleast our hands are clean… While I was using the sanitizer, I started musing 'Will swine flu spread in Chennai, since that it has started raining in chennai??'…annoyed of the thought..sigh..My Inner being :"J,Will you go and work!"

Checked my mails. Didn't feel like working. Peeped outside the glass window next to my place. It was pouring.I wanted to go home and sleep…Annoyed that I wouldn’t be doing it immediately.

Then came nats call. He said that his manager declared holiday and that he is waiting outside my office to pick me up. I didn’t expect him at my office to pick me home though I would have wanted that… Following was a quick conversation we had

J :you never asked me if i have work or not I have work , I cannot come

Nats: Can’t you ask permission?

J : No.

Nats: I am waiting outsite. I can go without you.Shall I leave?

J : ok. I ll come. Wait

Pinged my manager and left office!!!

Now, it was puring outside, We did not have jacket, nor that we had to safegaurd our attire. It is Monday but we are going home. We got ourselves fully drenched. We did not look for a shade! Not to mention about the stares that we got during our drive back home. we enjoyed that long journey to home happily!!! It was like go to school on a morning and coming back home saying "school leave today!!!"

Time to re-think

I remember I once liked listening to all these soppy love songs when I was in love.
I found myself lost with the song whenever I happened to listen.
When the songs ended, I had smiles
I remember the same engrossment with friendship song lyrics during colleage farewell times.

Have you noted that a few things would appear more important and obvious only during the time when you actually encounter it in life?

You would have gone past the same thing so many times but it would have not been more prominent…Am I blabbering? Is my point put across??

I remember another moment.
A coffee machine in my previous office had a tag labeled 'Xpress'. Not a small one. Pretty big one stuck on the machine and I had never noticed the label given that I had gone to the machine more than once a day.
The day when I noticed the label was during the time when I was assigned to a project called 'Xpress'…
To all my infy guys. Does that ring any bell? :)

Today morning, I was commuting to office by office cab. I was at the window seat.
Chennai traffic at peak hours….I wouldn't have to mention the speed of the vehicles!!
Just adjacent to my car was another car.

And at the window seat of that car was a very cute baby…the mother was holding the baby.

The baby should not be more than a year ...

It was doing all possible attempts to peep through the window and the mother with no strain had the baby under her grasp...

I liked looking at it.Yeah ...I know..babies are cute always..they are good to see every time...
But…hmm..I felt different…It felt nice even at that nettlesome moment..

Now relating to my hypothesis, is it because I am at that stage in life?


Oh no no…I don’t have any good news with me yet…:)

Just that I realized its time to rethink about our plan :)

Addicted to Drinking

I do a lot of drinking nowadays.
I am earnestly trying to stop this very bad habit but all my attempts are in vain.

I have also read drinking is not good for ladies who are planning to have baby. At least I should bring down the level of it in my blood when I am ready to get conceived.

When I stopped drinking at nights, I felt paranoid and was not able to sleep. That was when I realized I am addicted to it. SHOCK!!!!!!!!!!!

You won’t believe I am so addicted to it that I get up in the nights and would ask my hubby to give company for a drink. Nats after yelling at me would give me the company. We do cheers and enjoy our drinks at nights.
Now, my next step to stop having this is to stop taking it at office!!
Yes, let me first stop drinking coffee at office!!!Hey,What did you think???

Only in memories

Appa

Did you ever knew that we would be missing you like this??

All four of us are trying to forget that you left us.. that you are no more..

We are living with all the memories of yours...

Memories are keeping us going..

A few months back, I decided not to retreive any of your memories because all the time i thought about you it hurted so much..... I cant tell you how much......

Days were then rolling with some thoughts of you off and on!!

Lately I have realized my memories of you are slowly fading..Iam scared that the memories of you will slowly vanish from me....

and hence I started refering back all the memories though it hurts...let it hurt..

but I want you atleast in the memories... appa…

A bit too fast!!!!

Days are running.
Week ends .....melting...
Week days..I Manage time between work,cooking food for N(trying to impress him with my cooking..looks like hard to achieve..hehehe) and visiting my mom's place..
Week ends..i get busier.... cleaning and catching up with my in laws…. and sometimes wit friends...wooow.....and blogging??

Shame on me as a blogger

Shame on me!
It’s been a very very long time since I visited my site, let alone publishing an article. To add insult to the injury, I even forgot my login credentials.
If one actually counts the notable occurrences that happened in my life between the time of my last blog and now, one would realize how long it is. Shame on me... Let me list them
1) Marriage (yes..mine..and ofcourse with N..Still couldn't believe that it happened..Got lots to say about it)
2) Shopping that I did for my beautiful wedding (Would say those days were my Spending Spree)
3) First Night (Sorry for being indecent)
4) Second Night (ok.I ll stop it)
5) Honey moon(We loved it)
6) My new office (the best place to work)
7) My stay at my new house(N's house) (was lil difficult in the beginning)
8) Visit to Thirupathi with only my in-laws.Note..only with my in-laws ofcourse N was there (Was different and I liked it)
9) Thani kudathanam(not my idea.but like the idea.he he he)
10) My darling sis's first company (now that, she has got the good start in her career)
11) My best friend's first baby (wooww,very very very sweet baby.)
12) My hubbi's grandma's first anniversary-function at home (I was doing a lot of housie stuffs like the perfect daughter-in-law,)
13)My Dad's annivesary(i have no words.I still miss him)
13) N's friends death and N's emotional state because of that incident(was little distressing)
14) My close friend S's wedding(had a gud time)
Look at the count.. Not to mention, this is the count of the significant moments alone... not even one blog on one of these...Shame on me...
I wouldnt say 'I got busy Or I dint have time.' Probably I forgot that I am a blogger. Probably I was little doubtful about if my writing ever interesting somebody... I got this wake up call from one of my good friends (P)...thanks P. Hope I don’t bring in this huge gap again... Expect my next blog very soon. You know I have lots to write.